Emotions In Motion

Tuesday, 22 December 2009

  • Well, all in all, it's been a rather busy week. Favourite bit of the week would go to football though. Our team consisted of me, Jon, Chris, Yuan Sing, Brian, Wei Joe, Wei Jun and two other people who had connections to Jon. I arrived a little late after a cock up with the locations. In the end, I was shoe-horned onto the left back position. I was okay with it, but I would've loved to play up front with Brian, who was in scorching form all day. I found out soon that Wei Jun was in front of me on the left flank whilst Chris and Wei Joe were controlling midfield. Jon played off Brian in the middle, Yuan Sing took right back. All in all, it was a great game. On many occasions I ran up the field into the attacking third but my weak left foot meant I was occasionally wrong footed while dribbling. But otherwise, I thought I was effective. Defending wasn't good, but I did my part in pressing the opposition together with the back four. When I attack, I occassionally drift into the centre or to the opposite wing to open up attacking options for my teammates. I managed to create 3 goals though. All 3 from the left, using my pace to get beyond defenders. From 3-0 down, we came back 4-3 before we let in a late equaliser. Extra time. They took the lead and our carelessness let them sneak another one in. 6-4. Brian took on the entire defence by himself like he had all day long, this time his effort was most valuable. It got us a goal, rather he got himself a goal. 6-5. And then, after carrying the ball the length of the pitch following an interception, I spread the play further with Wei Joe drifting wide left. He whips in a cross which Brian only helped onto the bar. Wei Joe was quick to get to the rebound first. 6-6. The mother of all comebacks.

     

Sunday, 06 December 2009

  • I understand that whatever the hurt I caused is incomprehensible. I understand that if you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore, it's totally understandable. I realise how much of a hypocrite I've been to you. And well, that's it really. I am now the reflection of the one person I swore to hate. Whatever I did is inexcusable. Though I mantain I never meant to hurt you, I admit I have been very selfish. You were right. I never once thought of how this would affect you. Affect us. If there is an "us" anymore. You're angry. I know. You want to murder me. I understand. If so, go ahead. Don't let love hold you back. I'm nothing. I don't deserve you anymore. Though I love you, it might be irrelevant to you. That my love is anything but pure. I know my love for you isn't the remedy for the pain I've caused. Just... Go ahead. I DO care about what you do next. I DO wanna still be with you. It's just out of my hands now. You deserve more than what I can give you anyway. I love you. And for that I must leave it to you.  

Monday, 30 November 2009

  • Currently
    On the Verge of Collapsing
    By Other Desert Cities
    Walk With Me
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    In the shadows of the morning sun;

    In the shadows of the morning sun,

    Won't you walk, won't you walk

    With me.

     

    In the twilights of the ocean stars;

    In the twilights of the ocean stars,

    Won't you walk, won't you walk

    With me.

     

    In the glowing of the heartless moon;

    In the glowing of the heartless moon,

    Won't you walk, won't you walk

    With me.

     

    In the stillness of the midnight air;

    In the stillness of the midnight air,

    Won't you walk, won't you walk

    With me.

     

    You didn't have to push me aside. I hurt just like you...

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

  • Whoa. It's been a while since I updated. Suppose I've been lacking the motivation to blog. Hmmm. Well, since holidays are here, and I'm ever so jobless, for now, since I secured work part time at a nearby clinic (Yes. Apparently, Jeremy Chor has been exposed to the working world. I'll continue while you attempt to absorb that.), I've decided to crap on some more. :D

    Work starts on the 1st of December, but I'll be away for the Angkor Wat Marathon on the next day. Coming back on the 8th to celebrate the first year anniversary of our relationship the following day. Hope work doesn't get in the way. Post exams were crap as usual. I'm useless during that period of time evey year. So anyway, I've started my own training programme with the WMS people. That's Sunday mornings 8-9am. If you're interested, you're more than welcome to join me and Joshua.

    Aside from getting a part time job, I've also planned to back up on my studies. Failed 7 subjects for last term. NOT GOOD AT ALL! Since my history's useless and my Moral's... Well, yeah... I'm gonna work on my Add Math, and sharpen my Chemistry, Biology and Physics. So far, I haven't really been working on anything. It's been FIFA 10 the whole holidays so far. Crickey. I've just been in love with the game. Started with Barcelona. Totally reformated the entire team. Only kept a certain few players. Puyol, Pique, Messi, Xavi and Iniesta. The rest have been shipped out and replaced.

    And well, things haven't really been good at home. Mum's constantly losing her head and all. I can't really take anymore. She's been so controlling and I haven't been allowed much freedom. Yes, I still get to go on outings here and there, but she must really get over the fact that she and dad are divorced, even if he's seeing another woman. She constantly takes out her frustrations on me. Sometimes, I consider leaving this place and just... Live by myself. The divorce has turned her cold and bitter. She had tried to chase Timur out of my life and it caused a lot of breaking points in the household relationships. It all mended on false pretense when I led her on to believe that my relationship with Timur was over. But she still continues her endless rants and emotional abuse. I have college to live through, not to mention medical school as I still aspire to be a paediatrician. With all the funding required, I still need financial support which, no doubt, has to come from her. Or my father, but since he's adamant in keeping his money in his pockets, mum'll have to do the dirty work in raising me up. I'd rather be cut loose and be independant. Live on my own. Free of her ridiculous, unrational restrictions. Live my life the way I want to. Sigh. Well, since I've planned to return to England to acquire my medical degree, I shall accept British citizenship to escape from all this. Since I'm born there, that option is wide open to me. But... These decisions are made for the sake of my realtionship. Hopefully, I can live up to it. For now, I'm gonna have to work hard. With Timur and Kara as my motivation...

Thursday, 20 August 2009

  • Just WATCH this man run!

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    Absolutely STUNNING! From 9.69 to 9.58. 0.11 seconds off his own record. I'm a distant 11.18 from this man. God knows how far Bolt can push the human limits. He's SUPERHUMAN!

    And to spice things up even more, he'll be going for his own 200m record. This race shows you just how dominant he is in the sprints. He slows down when approaching the finish but still clocks 20.41 seconds. Malaysia's record for the 200m sprints is 20.9. F-U-C-K!

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    And what more would a world record breaker need more than his trusted pair of spikes?

    yaams

    At 149 grams, Yaams are one of the world’s lightest power sprint spikes. The design of the shoe was inspired by the art of Jeff Koons. A carbon plate, transfused directly into the spike, make it light and powerful and provides the “engine” of the spike. The orange colour was chosen specifically to contrast with Berlin’s signature blue track. The Yaam (pronounced yom), the sprint spike created exclusively for Usain Bolt to run the Berlin World Championships.

    Best part is, holidays are coming up. Yaam hunting will definitely be on my to-do list. SEXAY! X)

    In other news... Darling's sickeningly (does this word exist?) worried about PMR. All her worry's piling off-the-scale pressure on her to perform. She doesn't need this, but I'll be there for her to take all the shots I can. She'll need all the peace she can get. I've faith in her to perform well. She can work wonders. Why not now? :)

Tuesday, 21 July 2009

  • I realized my blog is not half dead, but just... DEAD. Poor thing. :( OH WELL!
    Loads of things have been going on. There's 30-Hour Famine to talk about. THAT was HEAPS of fun! GROUP 6!!! =D
    We won the "Most Sporting" award. ROCK ON, ASSES! X)

    And THEN, there was concert. I thought it was... Well, it wasn't great. Madam Matthews claims that there was an offer for us to perform at Istana Budaya or the sort. But heck. I thought it deserved a MERIT. No offense to the actors and dancers and such. But I reckon it was down to the management of it all. And seriously. Puteri Gunung Ledang? PLEASE LA! ==

    So looking ahead, there's MCKL Games Carnival coming next week. Looking forward to it. Whole new team from the one we sent out 2 years ago. Jon's no longer around. Neither is Colin and the evergreen Chris, who's sadly taken his talent abroad. But we'll be going with hopes high and boots ready to do the talking. X) Our team: Rajveer, Amir, Qing Wei, Wei Jun, Si Ven, Prime and myself. Notable talent and near-perfect team chemistry. We're ready to stamp our mark. WATCH OUT, CONTENDERS!

    That aside, we've also a potential match-up against Keith Lester. Shan't write much about it. he's ALWAYS been a waste of time anyway. X)

    DARLING'S birthday is coming soon too! She insisted on spending it with me. So... Fuck the rest la. I'm coming for you, baby. X)

    That's about it. Shall try to update more often. And Caitlin, I'm still alive. ;)

Sunday, 31 May 2009

  • Well, most of you might not know. But I'm grounded as of now. SHIT! I can't really type anything vulgar now. Jourdyn's with me. Crap this. JUST when I needed to let all this frustration out. =(

    6th month's coming up. How am I gonna spend it with her? I need to attend a weighing to officials can fit me into a category for SUKMA qualifiers on the 10th. Sigh. I really miss her. Jourdyn's repeating everything I'm typing. I'm gonna type this out to tell her to shut up. She just repeated that. Bloody idiot. X)

    Hmmm. Friday wasn't enough. I need to be in her arms and just stay there. I'm needing her more than ever. And she's not here. Or rather I'm not there. Either way, it's such a bad time for us. We're doing okay but we're craving for each other so bad. I'll find us a way baby. I promise you. One day, we'd never have to say goodbye.


Monday, 20 April 2009

  • Currently
    When You Tell Me That You Love Me
    By Diana Ross
    When You Tell Me That You Love Me
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    When You Tell Me That You Love Me...

    I listened to this song, and I couldn't stop crying. The song reminds me strongly of you, and how much you mean to me. I only wish I'm just as much to you as you are to me.

    I wanna call the stars
    Down from the sky;
    I wanna live a day
    That never dies;
    I wanna change the world
    Only for you.
    All the impossible
    I wanna do.

    I wanna hold you close
    Under the rain;
    I wanna kiss your smile
    And feel the pain;
    I know what's beautiful
    Looking at you;
    In a world of lies
    You are the truth.

    And baby,
    Everytime you touch me
    I become a hero,
    I'll make you safe
    No matter where you are
    And bring you
    Everything
    you ask for
    Nothing is above me
    I'm shining like a candle
    In the dark
    When you tell me that you love me

    I wanna make you see
    Just what I was;
    Show you the loneliness
    And what it does;
    You came into my life
    To stop my tears;
    Everything's easy now
    I have you here.

    Everytime you touch me
    I become a hero;
    I'll make you safe
    No matter where you are
    And bring you
    Everything you ask for;
    Nothing is above me
    I'm shining like a candle
    In the dark
    When you tell me that you love me.

    In a world without you,
    I will always hunger.
    All I need is your love
    To make me stronger.

  • Have I got news for you. Hehe! RED HOUSE HAVE SECURED SECOND PLACE! It was definitely difficult, coaching them. A whole lot of headache and heartache in the process. But to see us climb from last place to challenge the winners, Blue House, really moved me. Congrats to the Form Ones who won the Best Form Award whilst the Form Fours, winners for 3 years running, had our run cut short by the Blue House.
    But hey. Look on the bright side: It is the beginning of the revival of the Reds. We still retained the 100m relay medal that the dream team had been winning for four years in a row. Zhi Yang, Xian Yang, Christopher and myself have proven once again that we are a force to be reckoned with. And my timing of 11.18 seconds for the 100m event set a record for the fastest Wesleyan to ever grace the track (syok sendiri ^^). Also secured gold for the 400m event while earlier winning gold for the long jump. That makes it 4 gold out of 4 events for me. My achievements helped me win the Champion athlete for Form Four.

    So you think I'm happy. I'm high and in a party mood. Well, I'm NOT. My past mistakes are back to haunt me and now, there's so much more at stake. It's hanging by a thread and I don't know if we'll fall. If you can hear me now, which I know you can, just PLEASE. Let the past be past. I know I'm not the perfect guy. But you'll always be the perfect girl for me. I know you can't trust me as easily anymore, but know this: I will do ANYTHING it takes for me to win your trust back. I am PASSIONATE about keeping this relatiosnhip working out well. I could be the most hated guy anyone's ever known, but as long as you're happy, as long as WE'RE happy, nothing else matters. Because in this imperfect world, you're the most perfect person and I'm just so LUCKY to have you. You're the one person who can make or break me. And as of now, I will be a better person. Not for me, but for you, for US. Because you're WORTH changing for. My love for you is stronger than ever, and I'm needing you more than I ever have. Please, just... Please.

Monday, 30 March 2009

  • Kenneth wanted the update. Fatty has been reminding me to update my blog for the past week or so. And he sits besides me. Gonna put an end to my misery. WHEE! :D
    So far... Nothing big has been happening. Won gold for long jump in school. 5.42m was my distance. Joshua Low, fellow triple jumper, took silver with a 5.29 attempt. All in all, a good medal haul. Red fell back to last place in the standings. For the past week, we've stayed outside the bottom with fairly good performances. Yong Hui did us good by winning us gold in high jump, beating heavy favourite Tzer Chyuan in the process. Some Eric person also beat Jonas to gold in form 1 long jump. And with boys' high jump coming up, Joshua and Zhi Yang, earning themselves good reputations in the event, will definitely enter the finals as strong favourites. OH! And good luck to Zhuo Wei in his record breaking attempt at the high jump event. He's aiming for a 165cm finish. High hopes indeed. ;)
    Seeing that my form of runners are in top gear and ready for a sweep of medals again, it's down to the other athletes to step up to the occassion. So far, the form ones have shown promise. A certain Vincent person can keep up with me in the sprints. Really impressive. And overall, the attitude of the boys in training have been somewhat satisfactory, though their discipline is absolutely DISGUSTING!
    And from my point of view, unjaundiced, unprejudiced, the girls need to be more competitive. Their lack of discipline and focus in their training could very well be our undoing. I've been doing whatever I possibly can to raise the spirits in the training camp. Only the boys seem to reacting posivitively to my support, but the girls have, what I think is, a lack of confidence. And their unwillingness to cooperate to my training techniques have done nothing but piss the shit out of me. I can't lie. I felt like pointing a gun at them to get them to do it, if it was the only way to get them moving.
    And so starts my attempt to jumpstart our campaign back into track, and to revive our hopes of regaining top spot at the standings. Our attempt starts with the tug-of-war. No expectations. But I appeal to the march past and the gymrama teams to give it their all to help the athletes gain the points. We can't do it alone. :)
    BUCK UP PEOPLE! THE END IS 'NIGH! WE'LL PULL THIS SHIT OFF! Just do the shit I ask you to do. Don't be a smartass and ask me how many times. YOU FUCKING WELL GET GOING AND DO IT!!!

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  • Optimistic. Competitive. Rebellious. Hard, rock solid on the outside, soft, fragile on the inside. All for one/ one for all? I pick the latter. Nevermind what they say about you. Be someone NOBODY can be. ^^ Every team needs a hero. Don't wait. Be what you wanna be before someone beats you to it. GOD IS GREAT! My rock, my shelter, but most of all, my FATHER IN HEAVEN! =D Show others you care. Give unconditionally. Share your love with the world. =] Rise up and be a CHAMPION! You don't live forever, so make your stand... Don't say something to someone in your anger. You'll live to regret it later. Life's already full of regrets. No need for more. BOYS LIKE GILRS!!! ARSENAL!!! F50!!!

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